Unpublished post: The other day, I was sitting in bed, thinking about how I’m so beyond happy about my family life (my son), but I could tell that I wasn’t fully happy about other things. One really big thing that I’ve noticed is the fact that I’m not as confident as I was before my pregnancy. Before I got pregnant, you couldn’t shut me up about how pretty I thought I was and how awesome I am.
When I was pregnant, my best friend (my son’s father) and I, didn’t have the best dynamic. It took a toll on my happiness. I didn’t feel like smiling anymore. I simply felt depressed, until I moved out of town. While I was able to get my happiness back, I never quite saw that confidence again.
I realized that some of my confidence came from the fact that I thought I was pretty, no matter what anyone said or thought. (That’s what matters most anyway!) This week, I decided that it was time to get that confidence back. That was one of the reasons why I had decided to change my diet. I want to lose almost 30 pounds. I’m in no rush to get it done by a certain date. We all want to look good in our bathing suits, though. Maybe that will be my date motivation, but as long as I’m putting in the work, I won’t be disappointed if I’m not a skinny mini by then. At least I know I’ll be healthier at that point in time.
I also decided to make one more physical change. About four years ago, I colored my hair red and LOVED it. I decided to try that color again. I didn’t do anything special, just a regular box of hair dye. I have fairly dark hair in the winter, so right now it’s a lighter brown with some burgundy tint in there. In about a week or so when it’s been washed and conditioned more, I should have a nice red. Here’s what I got so far.
Can’t wait for this red to be poppin!